Friday, April 4, 2014

Cries ♥

The days when I wanted to cry, I wanted to cry hard, wanted to cry my heart out. Broken, shattered and completely lost. Days when nothing seems worth living for. When no one seems to give a damn about me. Everyone comes up with different excuses and reasons to leave me. They needed a break from me. Actually, they needed a break from my love. They ran away saying my love is wrong. I'm wrong if I have that feeling of love within me. I find myself with questions for which no one wants to answer. They just wanted to say that I'm wrong. Don't know where and why? but I'm wrong. Sometimes I don't want to live anymore. I wanted to disappear forever. I'm done with these heart breaks, losing loved ones, hoping for them to come back. Nothing happens but this pain increases with every second. Now and then people comes and make me realize that I'm not worth anything. I feel like a shit. Good for nothing. Some says I'm stubborn and some says that I have an attitude. Attitude of asking questions on why they left me when I needed them the most.
Tears that no one see. Heart breaks that no one feels and loneliness that no one fills. It kills me inside. I wish if it can kill me once forever. Living like a dead soul hurts. I wish if my only one wish come true. Wish of getting freedom from this pain.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

A Broken Soul ♥

DEAR SO CALLED GOD..

NEVER EVERR EVERRR.. I MEAN REALLY NEVER EVER COME IN FRONT OF ME WITHOUT A TISSUE BECAUSE ON THAT DAY I'M GONNA CRY MY HEART TO YOU. BUT YEAH ! DON'T FORGET TO BRING A BOAT WITH YOU. I'M SURE YOU WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO STAND IN THE FLOOD OF MY EMOTIONS. YOU PLAYED, ACTUALLY VERY WELL PLAYED WITH MY LIFE BUT THAT DAY WILL BE MINE. MY TURN TO SEE YOU STRUGGLING. I WANT YOU TO TASTE YOUR OWN BREAD. FOR THE FIRST & THE LAST TIME YOU MIGHT FEEL SHORT OF YOUR SYMPATHY WORDS SO YOU BETTER COME UP WITH YOUR DICTIONARY TOO. ON THAT DAY I'LL MAKE YOU BREAK YOUR SILENCE FOREVER AND FOR EVERYONE. I'M NOT GONNA ASK YOU ANY QUESTIONS. THERE WILL BE NO WHY? WHY WITH ME? WHY NOT THIS OR THAT? NOTHING LIKE THAT. THERE WILL BE ONLY YOU AND ME WITH ONE STORY. STORY OF MY LIFE. STORY OF MY DREAMS. INCOMPLETE, BROKEN & SHATTERED DREAMS. I'M NOT GONNA PLAY ANY BLAME GAME WITH YOU BECAUSE THERE IS NO ONE ELSE TO BLAME EXCEPT YOU. NOT ME & DEFINATELY NOT ANYONE ELSE BUT ONLY YOU ARE THE REASON OF MY SORROW. YOU ARE THE REASON OF BROKEN HEARTS, BROKEN PROMISES, BROKEN RELATIONSHIPS, BROKEN TRUST AND BROKEN FRIENDSHIPS. ALL MY LIFE I HEARD THAT EVEN A LEAVE CAN'T BE MOVED WITHOUT YOUR WILL. THEN WHY YOU TAKE THE CREDIT OF ALL GOOD THINGS ONLY AND BLAME US FOR ANY MISHAPPENINGS. WHY DON'T YOU DARE TO ACCEPT YOUR MISTAKES TOO? WE DO EVERYTHING AS PER YOUR WISH AND WHEN WE CHOOSE NOT TO FOLLOW YOUR COMMANDS BUT OUR DREAMS & HEART. YOU MAKE US DO SO BY PUTTING US IN A WORST POSSIBLE SITUATIONS EVER.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND THAT STUPID REASON IS YOU.
I REALLY WISH IF I CAN GET RID OF YOU ONCE FOR ALL. I WISH IF WE ALL CAN COME OUT OF THE MYTH OF YOU. MYTH OF YOU BEING A GOD, A CARE TAKER, A BLESSING, A STRENGTH AND A SOUL. BECAUSE YOU ARE NONE OF THE ABOVE. YOU ARE JUST A MERE SHADOW OF IMPERFECTION WHO CAN'T SEE ANYONE LIVING A PERFECT LIFE.
DEAR SO CALLED GOD.. PLZ YOU BETTER FIND YOUR GOD SOON. YOU WILL BE IN NEED OF HIM MORE THAN US.

DEFINATELY NOT YOURS,
A BROKEN SOUL

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Elzaam-e-ishq ♥

Elzaam-e-ishq ne kuch es kadar badal diya humein,
usko mitaate mitaate kambhaqt khud ko hi mita beithe


Friday, August 9, 2013

Shikayatein ♥

Shikayatein toh hai bohat.. unhe mujhse.. mujhe zindagi se
na mai kuch kehta hu, na zindagi kuch kehti hai ♥
Tamannaye toh hai bohat us dil ki es dil se
wo na keh kar bekaraar rehti hai, Mai ankahi sun kar bekaraar rehta hu ♥


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Now That You're Rich . . . Let's Fall In Love
Of Course I Love You...! Till I Find Someone Better...
If It's Not Forever. It's Not Love.
She Broke Up, I Didn’t! .... I just kissed someone else!
You Were My Crush!...till you said you love me!
Life is What You Make It
Can Love Happen Twice?
I have a Dream
OOPS! 'I' fell in love! just by chance...
Till The Last Breath
Ohh Yes I Am Single...!: And So Is My Girlfriend
Anything for You, Ma'am ; An IITian's Love Story
Love @ Facebook
Accidentally In Love
The Promise
Tea for two and a piece of cake
The Secret Wish List
I'm not twenty four...I've been nineteen for five years...
Never Let Me Go...
It's first love...Just like the last one!


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